God, Why?

I am not a great writer and not as eliquent as other blogers but I choose to share hoping that it might help those who are similarly situated as me--imperfect and who fails miserably during temptations.

I have asked God countless times why He made me weak and imperfect that bring me so much distress and loneliness. I have asked Him to change me and my circumstances. I have asked Him who I am and where my place is. I also asked Him why do I have to cry...

I did not get straight forward answers because I was asking the wrong questions. My questions were about understanding myself so I can overcome my circustances. It was not about understanding His plans and purpose. It was not about Him. Fortunately, I learned that God's purpose is not the development of man; God's purpose is to make a man exactlty like Him, and the characteristic of Jesus is self-expenditure (O. Chambers) not self-realization.

A man named Nick Vujicic also asked God the Why? question. Nick was born without arms and legs. Nick grew up facing tremendous obstacles trusting God who he felt has given him less. Nick asked,
"God why have you not given me what you gave others?"
"Why did you take my arms and legs?"
"Why didn't you game me what everybody else has?"

Nick challenged God that he will not open his heart to Him until He answer his questions. As he grew up with his disability, he waited for God to answer. When he was 8 years old he tried to take his life by drowning himself in his parent's bath tub. He failed to go through it because of his love for his parents. One day, his mother showed him an article about a man with severe physical disability that greatly impacted him. He learned that he has a choice to be either be angry with God of what he does not have or be thankful of what has has. Nick's mother also told him, "Nick, God is going to use you; I don't know how, I don't know when, but God's gonna use you."

Since then, Nick served God faithfully. He learned that God can heal without changing the circumstances and it is useless to be complete in the outside but broken in the inside. There will be no outside satisfaction if there is no peace inside. Nick changed and saw himself whole. Nick does not ask God why anymore because he "is not a man without arms and legs but a child of God."

God answered Nick's questions that I believe answers our questions too. So typical of Jesus, He answers question with a question. His answer--"Do you trust Me?" It is not about Nick being physically disable or me being defensive and stubborn or you and your issues, it is about trusting God that He has a purpose.

Reminders when we find ourselved asking "God, Why?":

-God is love and His love endures forever. Therefore, He does not want to punish us. The Cross should be enough of a proof and reminder how much He loves you and me.

-God is Just. He wants us to be with Him. When we sin this desire gets jeopardized becasue "He cannot tolerate sin" and we "need to be like Him." Therefore, His being just results to punish sin and to discipline and to teach us so that we can be free to be with Him.

-God's thoughts are higher than our thoughts. We cannot comprehend everything, which is the reason we ask Why.

-He knows you and me even before we were born and He has plans to prosper and not to harm us. Since we cannot understand everything, believing and reminding ourselves that He has plans for us should ease our mind.

Just don't dare to ask "God, Why?" Since God has the ultimate and unquestionable reasons, asking "Why God?" is just merely whinning. So if it will help your situation to whine, go ahead ask away. However, if I were you ask "What God?" What can I do for YOU?...

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